Open mind, closed arms, I'm not broken, jusbruised

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Fri, 29 Jun 2012 14:24:29 -0400

One million moms.....

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 14:21:26 -0400

I highly urge everyone to walk their fingers over to their Facebook page, and report them for their filth! I mean really! People! We are not this shallow are we???? How the FUCK are you going to sit there and say GLT people should not have rights! This group blows in a bad way!

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Fri, 29 Jun 2012 12:15:26 -0400

lazyyogi: The real man never looks back, because there is...

Mon, 11 Jun 2012 18:17:17 -0400

lazyyogi:

The real man never looks back, because there is nothing to see.

Osho

It's the mother fucking weekend!

Fri, 25 May 2012 20:24:07 -0400

It’s hot and muggy, smelly and sticky…. Everything Philly should be this time of year…. All I want to do is chill in the AC!

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Tue, 22 May 2012 18:34:34 -0400

Living with RA

Mon, 21 May 2012 14:15:10 -0400

so I just got back home from my monthly injection. A few months ago they upped the dosage, totally normal, no big deal, well now it’s effecting my body SO much more. I walk out of the medical building, walk a few blocks, yake. Walk a few more blocks, feel disorientated, sit down, take it easy for a few…… Keep making my way to the subway….. Get home, get the second, third, and fourth wave of shire, unflattering hot flashes, and yake AGAIN!

So, this is how I will feel for two days?! And yet, I’m told I will feel much better the next 28 days, until it’s almost out of my system, then I will feel I’ll from it being out of my system, and start all over again…. I explained that by day 20-22 I feel the effects of it wearing off, meaning I start feeling sick again. They said it’s “all in your head, tell your mind you feel fine”, and of course I look this jerk in they eyes, and said, a junkie doesn’t have withdrawals, it’s all in THEIR Heads! Jerk looks at me and said, “oh lord no, those are real!” wtf? Really! That’s not what o want to hear! Lol

So I’m home, and need to rest, but this will be short lived…. As the lil one will be out of school soon, but until the my bed will be holding me up!

May 17th

Mon, 14 May 2012 15:33:36 -0400

better than Christmas in my world! It’s almost his birthday! Can’t wait to celebrate with my family!

Just once

Sun, 13 May 2012 12:27:18 -0400

i want my child to feel the love of a father the way my father loved me! Here it is mothers day, and I got a 5am wake up call to puke duty…..

To no surprise, bio dad won’t make time for my angle, when all monkey wants and needs is cuddles, and someone to hold hands, while both ends declaring war on the belly :-(

How can a “man” not be there for a sick child? How can you hold your head up high, and call your self a parent when you don’t even parent?

Happy Sunday to me, tired, worried, and smelling like my child’s vomit! I know at the end of each day, when I tuck my monkey into bed, say sweet dreams, and I love you, I mean it! I know when I check on the sleeping child, and refill a water cup, pick up the stuffed animal that fell, and put the covers back on, that my child feels the comfort!

And one day, for my child, I hope monkey understands, and forgives him for his actions. One day I hope my child can have time well spent with dad. And one day, I hope my child grows up and loves me the way I love my child.

And one day, for me, I hope I forget the pain I feel today. As I have already forgiven, I yet to fully let go to forget. I know how unhealthy anger is, so I let go each time I meditate, I have enough faith in Buddha, to understand this may not be ideal, but I have strength. I have many options in life, it’s up to me how to follow them, and make the best of them. And one day, I hope to look back and know I did my best.

Yet, for today, I hope my sick lil monkey mends…..

lazyyogi: A prayer of emergence from divine amnesia. Statues...

Sat, 12 May 2012 21:13:36 -0400

lazyyogi:

A prayer of emergence from divine amnesia. Statues crumble, temples turn to dust, words die to silence, and emotions change unceasingly.

Lead me from the unreal to the Real, lead me from the darkness to the Light;

Lead me from the temporary to the Eternal.

fuckyeahtattoos: The Buddha tattoo after the third session. It...

Wed, 09 May 2012 09:50:46 -0400

fuckyeahtattoos:

The Buddha tattoo after the third session. It doesn’t appear on this photo, but on the internal side of my bicep, there’s a Buddha phrase written in Thai that says: “What we think, we become”.

So little time, to much going on....

Tue, 08 May 2012 17:47:10 -0400

wondering just how much poo a monkey can fling? Hummmmmm….. There just isn’t enough time in a day. Not enough hands to play. Not enough breaths to keep me calm.

To much to get done. To much running through my mind. To much to see before I get to the sea.

Hurt and anger bubbling up, lies upon lies building a stairway to death. The trust has been crushed, yet the joker keeps juggling. Off with his head, off with his head!

Something’s must be better off dead…..

Love!

Tue, 01 May 2012 16:01:06 -0400

Love!

What he said!

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 19:02:36 -0400

What he said!

Life with kids....

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 15:47:46 -0400

so, my lil monkey has finally made some good friends between school, and the neighborhood, one of the regulars is such a sport! He likes to play dress up, likes dolls, and is currently playing barbies with monkey and dizzy!

It’s so much fun watching all these kids play! It makes me so thankful for being able to stay home half the day, and letting the kids play in our home. And not to mention the LAUGHS!!!!

I know monkey has had way to many changes in life, and it saddens me what all we have been through, I feel like I can never do enough for my child….. But I’m learning to just enjoy the now, and enjoy letting kids be kids!

And having all these kids in the house, has brought a new openness to myself and them. They ask questions about all my buhdist things, about cupcakes comics and collectables, and I feel like we are teacher each many lessons!

Today’s? The right way to talk about female parts… We don’t call them tittys, we call them boobs! Yes, this is really what we just talked about…. Love my home!

Monkey and Shorty

Wed, 25 Apr 2012 18:24:24 -0400

a little hot chocolate and a powdered donut treat, because arts and crafts work up a hunger! It doesnt suck to be 6! Sugar them kids up two hours before bed time, why not? Mainly because one has to go home soon, and they play so well together, oh and when their in here, I worry less about the jerk neighbors at the corner, and the “open all night” like 7-11 business that seems to be going on!

Hahahaha!

Tue, 24 Apr 2012 19:21:47 -0400

Hahahaha!

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Mon, 23 Apr 2012 19:52:20 -0400

Puppy and his human....

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 16:19:31 -0400

Love how my two lil ones are cuddled up on the couch together!! Nothing better on a rainy day then getting home to puppy love! He’s the most amazing Pitt we could have found, he never gets mad at being dressed up as a princesses, he let’s monkey lay all over him, and checks on her four times a night as monkey sleep away!

Don’t know who to love more someday, cupcake, tiny or monkey? They all pretty much rock….

Sometimes, just sometimes, do I wonder, “WTF for?”...

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 14:17:20 -0400

Sometimes, just sometimes, do I wonder, “WTF for?” then, I stop, and remember, you can’t fix stupid, and it’s best to have them labeled one way,or another!